Freedom is a bloody business

My hope for you is that you have the faith to fight this fight. Faith that you CAN successfully set boundaries. Faith that you are worth it to go no contact or low contact. Faith that God will take you through this and heal you. Faith that no matter what happens you will be ok. Faith that therapy is worth it and will help you. 

Freedom throughout history has always been won at a price. And many times it is bloody. We fought for our freedom against great Britain in many bloody battles. Eventually we won, but many died in the process. Jesus died a bloody death on the cross to win our freedom from sin. The American Civil War was the bloodiest war in the history of the United States of America. Finally slavery was made illegal.

Surviving and healing from narcissistic abuse was the second hardest thing I have ever gone through in my life, after getting diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I did not gain my freedom by sitting around. I had to continuously show up to therapy sessions when everyone around me was gaslighting me.

I went to many doctors to get help when my body could not fight off a nasty infection due high cortisol levels while enduring narcissistic abuse. Finally I was diagnosed with adrenal fatigue. I did not give up after the first few doctors could not help me. I went to battle inside my mind fighting fears and ruminating thoughts. I learned only to trust a handful of safe people because all others were flying monkeys trying to hurt me further. 

While dealing with mental health issues, emotional abuse, and these immensely difficult challenges suck, at the same time it develops your strength, tenacity, and determination to survive and get through it. God has a bigger plan for your life. Fight for your freedom and have faith God will see you through to the other side.

"If God is for you, who can be against you?" Romans 8:31.